The way of my weirdness

Just a quick little post I wanted to share with you all before I get back to another 10 hours 

of catching up on work. (I would complain but I love what I do so I don't mind)

My Best friend sent me the link to this because he thought of me while watching...

I absolutely love that this made him think of me. That tells me that I am still following my own path.

If you read my blog regularly (Ok as regularly as I post lately) you know

that I describe myself with words like: weird, strange, odd, crazy, freak etc.

Well those are terms I use with pride not insult. A word can only be an insult if YOU accept it as such. I AM weird, strange, odd, hyper, crazy, nuts, silly, goofy, a complete freak and I am so proud to be just who I am. I am not 'socially acceptable' or 'normal' and I am aware of it, I get stares, glares, side eyes, remarks, snarks. I know that some people try to explain/excuse my appearance/behavior/style as a mid-life crisis, reliving my childhood, looking for attention, or plenty of other mental/emotional issues at the source of the problem. I do not attempt to explain or express my reasons or perspective to those who judge me.

I am who I am because I was raised to question, never accept anything just because

'they' say it is so. I have ALWAYS walked to the beat of my own drummer, I have never been 'normal', I have NOT changed because I don't need to, I am ME...100%, I break rules because the rule is wrong, I go against the norm because the norm is insane/twisted/backward. I am me, I look how I look, act how I act, wear what I wear because this is what feel right...it suits me, my view and I don't have to follow their rules or see things their way. I walk my path and I don't expect anyone to agree only to allow....everyone to walk their path because no one will carry you so you damn well better enjoy the scenery on the way!

OK enough babbling....The amazaballz video...

To my bestie, thank you for sharing and more so for not ever minding my offbeat ways...Love you forever just as you are! A thousand tiny kisses!

Typical Outfit of the day

I'm not a very fancy girl, I can dress up but I'm more of a comfort killed fashion

kind of person. Most days you'll catch me in something like this or jeans.

But my sweet friend of forever insisted that for someone who works and is in the public

eye most of the time I don't post many pictures of me...all of me so he wins and you have to look at my favorite non fashion. :o)

Are in complete awe of my anti fashion?

Top cute skelanimal kitty with skully ties.

Skirt is just a comfy cotton a line

Fishnets (25 year staple in my wardrobe)

Boots, funky little biker boots with chains, so comfy.

And my beloved ruffle socks, these are actually knee socks.

There I took my damn picture...you happies now?

When Hot guy has the camera *eyeroll* But my hair looks so cute!

Why does my camera grainy muck indoor pics?

So there you have it....my standard look...not so fancy but I can play all day and night and be comfy.

A day in my world

Yesterday morning I woke up too early to get two of my kids off to school

way to early in the morning. (they have to be at the bus stop at 6:30 am, elementary school)

Guess what I found....

This is a half inch of shampoo in the bathtub

Someone tried to hide the evidence?

Someone short with black feet

You can't tell but there is an entire new bottle of soft scrub coating the floor, mixed with bubble bath and shampoo

I haven't had coffee yet

Notice the wee baby footprint

So I decide to go make coffee and wake up before waking the suspect

Dies!!! (mind you this is after I had swept off the loveseat and swept the floor)

Eyeshadow (loose pigment) finger painting in the middle of the night while Mommy & Daddy sleep?

This explains the bathroom

The rug was white and blue

Ah yes the tiny size 9 baby footprint with chocolate smudge

I guess all that destruction make you hungry.

My 3 year old daughter (my husbands child, I've disowned her) got into my eyeshadow box and dumped every single eyeshadow out onto the loveseat, played in it, got a chocolate snack cake, ate and then tried to clean herself up while destroying the bathroom, then brought her pillow and blanket into sleep on the floor by our bed. (I guess she didn't want to muss up her bed)

So after waking her pigment coated naked butt up and immediately scrubbing her off in the bath (using the half inch of shampoo she poured out) I then spent 3 + hours cleaning and shampooing the loveseat.

Kids will be kids you say? Oh no this child has: painted herself and the entire living room with 2 full jars of Vaseline, painted the bathroom with toothpaste-shampoo multiple times-Daddy's shave cream, my pomade, "washed" the kitchen floor in grape-orange and orange juice, painted the loveseat with frosting- hair gel-and Elmer's glue and at least 2-4 times a week pours the hand soap out all over the bathroom floor.

Where are her parents? the same place as most people at 2-4am....sleeping. How do you stop this?

I have all cleaning, shampoo, hair etc products locked in the bathroom closet, and everything is either put out of my reach so surely she cannot get to it.....WRONG. No matter how many times we move things, lock things up and secure things she find new ways (that we cannot figure out) to get to them or new things to destroy. I already suffer from insomnia I really need the 3-4 hours I do get. We are at a loss as to how to stop her from destroying everything while everyone else sleeps.

Anyway....so when you ask how I am and I say tired, remember these pictures and you'll know one of the reasons for my frequent answer.....I'm so tired!

Comment Spamming & other such rudeness

I have said most of this before and or on Twitter but just to make sure

that EVERYONE understands my perspective.....here she goes again!

I do not condone, appreciate or tolerate blatant advertising, comment spamming, link dropping or any other rudeness on my blog! No exceptions, excuses or special regards! Not before, now or ever! Clear enough?

If you do not know what I'm talking about I will briefly explain:

Comment Spamming is when a business, website or blogger leaves a vague comment followed but come see my site. Example: "Nice Post! You should come check out my blog/website/whatever."

Link Dropping is nearly the same as above only a link to said offender is included.

Example: "Great color! Your followers would love my blog/site come see it here http://imarudeasshatblog.com "

Advertising, umm I'm sure you recognize it when you see it but for the smart kids..

Example: "Great color. I love brand X it's the best crap on the planet. You can get it at this link xxxx. They have the best prices, shipping, customer service and are so cheap and shady that I go around spamming blogs instead of paying for advertising like a legitimate company."

I was once a new blogger....you remember right...I had 1 follower and no comments.

I also NEVER spammed, link dropped or other such rudeness to let people know about my blog.

I worked my arse off on my blog, improving content, pictures, layout etc. I spent a shit ton of my money buying polish and sharing those swatches with well, nobody for a long while, but I blogged and enjoyed it even if I was the only one reading it. I followed a lot of other blogs (still do) and commented as much as I could (Still do but I have much less time now), I got to know other bloggers and word just kind of got around that I was here. People started coming and reading, some followed some didn't but my blog grew. A few of those lovely blog pals added me to their blog roll, I did ask politely via email a couple of them if they would add me. Most added me of their own choosing and I adore them for that.

My blog is mine from begging to end, built on my hard work and love and I am proud to say that I made this blog without ever stepping on the backs of my fellow bloggers!

I get emails, DM's on Twitter, messages on FB etc. from lots of

new or new to me blogs asking very respectfully if I would go look at their blog or add them to my blogroll & I will always do so for those who ask in the correct manner. I get emails asking for advice, help etc and I am honored to be asked and do my best to help. I love finding new blogs and making new friends. I can say that there are a few blogs out there today that I helped get off the dust pile and shined a giant spotlight on. I can also tell you that those bloggers came to me in a very respectful manner and that is why I bent over backward to help them. I love helping people, it is one of the main reasons I blog.

I know that some bloggers don't mind link dropping or comment spamming.

The majority do mind it, very much so! Personally I feel that it shows poor character, laziness, disrespect and very bad manners. *A little tip: Beauty/Nail bloggers have a fairly tight community & respect is a big must so showing yourself to be disrespectful early on will backfire badly. I can think of a couple of blogs that are gone due to the blogger being disrespectful, rude or otherwise shady within the community.*                     My blog is not your step stool, if you want to see where your blog can go then do like the rest of us and work your arse off and you'll get there when your time comes. If you want to advertise on my blog then email me and we can discus it. If you have a giveaway, sale or other special something going on that you think my readers would like to know about...email me.

Do Not try to step on my back to get ahead...I will drop you flat on your face!

If I come off as harsh it is because this is a big issue and I feel very strongly about it. So much so that I have blocked people, in the past, from my blog for doing these things. Just remember to be respectful and think before you act or react!

OK I'm done....until the next round

Where I have been the past 2 days...

We had a lovely hail storm Wednesday...

This is our backyard about 25 minutes after the storm. It was about 75 degrees so half of the hail had already melted at this point.

This was the average size of the hail that pelted us...it had melted quite a bit already

The center white part is a tad smaller than a golf ball

The little one is one of the smallest ice rocks thrown from the sky

***Warning feetsies coming up....

How ridiculous is the size of these half melted pieces of hail

It attacked my poor truck....this is my side view mirror

Just a few of the dents in the hood

Can you believe it...the hail came down so hard it actually shattered the paint on the hood here

The shed didn't fair well either

this is a 3 1/2 inch hole in the roof of the shed

One of the small holes in the roof

Baseball size hole in the tool shed

These are some of the pieces I was still finding 45 minutes after the storm ended

So needless to say we have been cleaning up broken glass, patching holes, fixing fence pieces and generally cleaning up the aftermath. The worst it taken care of so I should be able to get back to posting.

(The Nail polish on my fingers is Zoya Tanzy and on my Flinstone toes is Color Club Ultra Astral)

Did anyone else get these freak storms?

A little Stressed out today

I' m just a little stressed today!

I think I'll go do this...

Or maybe this....

And then I can do a real post this evening!

25 things to love about me....

I actually have this hanging in my work space and next to my desk

Click to make it giant so you don't hurt your eyeballs!

Playing it by ear

The next few days that is what I will be doing....playing it by ear.

The Hot Guy has been having a lot of difficulty lately!

Phycotic episodes, panic attacks, depression, and paranoia are flying rampant.

So I will post when and if I can but as you know my family comes first

and he needs a lot of extra help right now.

So I thought I would quickly offer some of my favorite informative sites with info on his multiple

health issues....I hope these are helpful as I have discovered that his disorders are much more common than I had known. (Not usually all rolled it one person but hey...nobody is perfect)

Schizophrenia-

http://www.schizophrenia.com/

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/schizophrenia/DS00196

http://www.nami.org/Template.cfm?Section=schizophrenia9

Post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml

http://www.ptsd.va.gov/

Panic disorder (panic attacks)

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/panic-attacks/DS00338

http://helpguide.org/mental/panic_disorder_anxiety_attack_symptom_treatment.htm

Social Anxiety disorder (social phobia)

http://www.adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/social-anxiety-disorder

http://www.socialanxietysupport.com/disorder/

Bipolar depression disorder

http://www.webmd.com/bipolar-disorder/guide/default.htm

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/bipolar-disorder/complete-index.shtml

Diabetes type 2

http://www.diabetes.org/diabetes-basics/type-2/

I also want to say that if you or someone you know is experiencing mental health issues

please reach out for help! Mental health disorders ARE health problems, no less urgent or disabling than any physical health issues and there is no shame in being ill only in being ignorant and insensitive to someones illness! Don't give up....you wouldn't stop cancer treatment would you?!

Blog changes and comments grrrrr....

I had installed Intense debate but

over the past week it has gone wonky.

Sometimes I can't see comments, sometimes I can, it's eating comments, and sometimes ID comments is just gone. When I go to Intense Debates on my dashboard it would say I did not have Id installed but if I tried to install it said it was already installed.....tech was no help at all. they kept wanting me to send them links to the missing comments or to the things that I could not link to because they did not exist! Idiots!

So I give up! I'm going to work on redoing the blog top to bottom...

problem is I have very little time so it will be a bit funky for a while, until I can get it all together.

Thanks for understanding and any suggestions are welcome!

To all my friends

Did you know that women have a Flaw?

One Flaw In Women

Women have strengths that amaze men.....

They bear hardships and they carry burdens,

But they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy

And laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in..

They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer,

When they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel

And cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about

A birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member,

Yet they are strong when they

Think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss

Can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you

To show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what

Makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideas.

They give moral support to their

Family and friends.

Women have vital things to say

And everything to give..

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,

IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

I wanted to share this with ALL of my readers. Please write a note to yourself, your friends, Mother's, daughter's, Grandma's, sister's or any of the women you know.... Simple write, You are worth more than all the stars in the sky and I love you!

P.S. Make a banner and hang it over the kitchen sink.... "I am worth so much more than even I know"

I can't post until tomorrow

I had to get a new laptop today due to the mental problem my old one has....

now I have to load alllllllllll of my programs and pics etc onto this one. :o(

I will try to get a post up tomorrow!

And to Caitlin...I'm sorry I looked like this ^ today!

I'm shocked you even reccognized me looking so very ewwwww! lol

I suck and I'm sorry!

I know that posts have been sporadic lately and I am very sorry!

I could give a huge list of excuses but like my Mom always said..

"Excuses are like A$$holes everyone has one and they all stink!"

So instead I will just be honest and say that my ADD has gotten seemingly worse and life has been out of control due to my lack of ability to focus from beginning to end on any one project. I am taking medication now and it is helping my focus hugely. (yes that IS a word)

So I am prioritizing the mountain and knocking out one task at a time and hope to be caught up soon.

In the interim I will do my best to post at least 3-4 times a week but as much as I love blogging and you my beautiful readers....blogging does not pay actually this blog costs me a shiny bit so work must come first.

Smooches and big squishes!

Discount shopping site

I found another discount shopping site I thought my friends might be interested in..

No More Rack They have great prices and more products coming.

They are selling out pretty fast...just got myself a cute ring!

I'll keep a link in my sidebar (left) so you can check it out periodically and find pretties.

I am holding a contest on my Evil Shades Site

I thought some of you might be interested.

I am having a label design contest on my business' site

Click for details here

Prizes:

1st prize $100 in Evil Shades Cosmetics

2nd Prize $50 in Evil Shades Cosmetics



Words to remind myself

I had a post in mind for today but unfortunately a situation related to my business

came up unexpectedly that upset me terribly and I have been completely useless since.

I'm sorry but since it is related to my business I won't go into it publicly...you all know how much I dread drama! Some of you who follow me on twitter know briefly what the ugliness is and I apologize for even that small outburst, it was not very professional of me.

So I am going to post some very wise words that I grew up with both to share with you and to remind myself to be still and quiet and regain myself!

(This is my peaceful, silent place. The only place on earth that I can go anytime to find my own silence just by closing my eyes. Days like today this is where I need to be)

When you are in doubt, be still and wait.

When doubt no longer exists in you, go forward with courage.

So long as mists surround you, be still.

Be still until the Sunlight pours through, as it surely will.

Then go forward and act in courage!

Great Spirit,

Help me always

To speak the truth quietly,

To listen with an open mind when others speak,

And to remember the peace that may be found in silence.

(I hope these words help some of you as much as they do me!)

I don't do New Years Resolutions

Seriously, I have never set a New Years Resolution...Ever!

I just don't get the idea of it I suppose.

I do not intend on starting that tradition but I will set myself with this....

I will be a better "Me" through this year than I was last year.

That is as far as I go.

I would like to share this with you to help put a good mindset to the new year

(The above picture is of a clan of wild horses on the Blackfoot reservation in Montana)

**The following are words I grew up with and I repeat them to myself daily**

Treat the Earth and all that dwell theirin with respect

Remain close to the Great Spirit

Show respect for your fellow beings

Work together for the benifit of All Mankind

Give Kindness and assistance wherever needed

Do what you know to be right

Look after the well being of Mind and Body

Dedicate a share of your efforts to the Greater good

Be truthfull and honest at All times

Take full responsibility for All of your actions

Makeup posts?

You all know that I own evil Shades Cosmetics,

so obviously I love makeup....a lot!

I would like to do more makeup posts but I do not want to bore and or annoy you.

I am not a makeup blogger/guru but I do try and I enjoy it.

I am posting a poll in my right sidebar so you can anonymously

let me know what you think.

Thank you bunches!

Some new Evil Shades pretties

I have been so busy lately, I thought I should show you with what.

Evil Shades is growing...she is a toddler now it would seam. With growth brings more work for Me so my time has become very precious.

3 eye primers

These took a long time to formulate but I'm glad I did it.

New Deviant lipsticks and a new Liquid Sin gloss

A new line of goodies! Hardcore lips: these are pigmented like lipstick but apply and have the texture of a gloss. There are only 4 for now.

6 New Duotone Blushes

Foiling liquid

As well a lot of new eyeshadows, glitters and my beloved Cuticle balm and Cuticle creme & so much more in developement.

So I promise I only neglect you out of lack of time in the day!

Who knew a few years ago that I would be setting up my very own Black friday/Cyber Monday sale?

It's so overwhelming, exciting and even scary how far this amazing ride has come!

Thank you all for your support both here and with my Evil Shades, I appreciate it

 far more than words can express! I love you all and am proud to know you!